For the first day....I'm posting alot.

I can't look at you the same way anymore. You have a bitch side to you. You're darker then I thought.
You cease to be that one close friend I thought you where.

Eternity ~ "Memory of Light and Waves"
Anyone heard of that piece? It’s in the piano collection of Final Fantasy
I was listening to that whilst doing some “browser-ing” looking through things where I shouldn’t really be looking. When someone places you that trust, it really isn’t your position to abuse; but there are times where your curiosity get’s the better of you.

Then the truth hurts. You find something rather painful to read.
But the more you read, the more you’re interested. The more you read the more pain you gain. The in the end, you just look at the person in a whole different light. And realise what that person really thinks of us all.

Lost? So am I.

overtly condescending individuals thinking they had something unique. Very few people are truly unique, so don’t even try to be; just embrace your smallest quirks. It is the combination of said quirks and interests which makes you the slightest bit different, not your ‘desire’ to be an astronaut.

Always remember that you’re unique. Just like everyone else...

Irony. I wouldn’t mind dying of irony. It’s quite a fun concept unless you’re the receiving end of it.

Typically; a case of irony would be you used to like someone. They don’t like you back. You eventually get over it. After while, you move on…find someone else. By that time, the girl you used to like, likes you back.

Pffftt…unfortunately this girl isn’t really nice. By nice I mean personality. She’s the type to go “a boy likes me… and now he's gone and now I want him I’m too late”
It’s a wonder what made you liked her in the first place.

She doesn’t like you. She’s just jealous she isn’t in the centre of your attention anymore.
She’ll then complain “my life is so awful, will i never love on time?”

Vain. Slightly touch of arrogant. Head full of trivial knowledge. Empty.

Go way. Just go away.
You probably don’t even know why you liked her in the first place

..isn't asking,'you ok? x' at the beginning of every conversation. It isn't pitying someone who doesn't have the kinds of friends you have and including them because of that. Thoughtful isn't giving someone you hardly know a condescending smile and a hug just because you're giving everyone else a hug. It isn't starting a conversation with someone who you know is having a terrible time with their life and asking them stupid questions on how they did in an exam or an essay or a teacher that they don't like so they'll start bitching - it isn't thoughtful to 'take their mind off it'. Being thoughtful is changing yourself to get something out of someone,a friendship,a smile or even another present on your birthday. It's researching their interests then acting as if you like them. Having long conversations and googling terms and jokes so you'll understand them. It's teasing playfully not underhand mocking. It's pretending you're someone else to make a friend,hiding bits of yourself that might offend. Being a thoughtful person shouldn't ever be lumped in with being kind or caring or loving. You shouldn't be proud to be thoughtful.

Boo indeed.

Attempt number 3 I believe. Perhaps this time, I’ll keep on writing and I won’t delete like the previous other blogs.

Hello. How are you?
Is that being thoughtful?