You would of thought....

After a while, perhaps I could you give you a simple answer...with answering with a question.

Ahhhhh....
Don't you wonder why I'm suddenly happy?

Wow.

Lack of sleep.
Lack of food...

Mother thinks I'm suffering from stress
First time...she showed concern...

Funny though....I've already taken out the most stressful thing in my life, I think.
Haven't you noticed?
I'm slighly more noticably more 'smily' and happy

The more absurd life is, the more unsupportable death is...

After all;
In a world where everything is ridiculous, nothing can be ridiculed. You cannot unmask a mask.

I woke up today...
and thought

"God...that was the best sleep I had for ages..."

I woke up today...
and thought

"Wow...it's sunny today..."

I got out today...
and felt

The slighly summer wind blowing across...

But more importantly...
I woke up with a smile...

I wonder which bastard is going to take it away from me today?

Life...

It's growing tiresome....

For me.

I know...
It's all wrong.
By rights we shouldn't even be here.
But we are.

It's like in the great stories; the ones that really mattered.
Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn’t want to know the end...because how could the end be happy?
How could the world go back to the way it was, when so much bad had happened?

But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow.
Even darkness must pass.
A new day will come.
And when the sun shines, it will shine out the clearer.

Those were the stories that stayed with you, that meant something, even if you were too small to understand why.

Those in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn’t.

They kept going... because they were holding on to something.

No...Life isn't very fair.

It's just simply...fairer than death.

You see...

It's starting all over agian...with some...small differneces.

All the poking...and the "go go go!" and the...little fireball from street fighter.

Yes...back to normal?
Not really.

It will happen agian.
...That...is obvious.

Some people's words I remember so well that I must often use them to express my thought.

Yes, because I perceive that we have heard the same truth, but they have heard it better....

It's good to believe in a lie you told yourself so much...that it actually convieces you to believe it.

I don't care anymore...
I don't think....

I'm getting better.
My illness....it's curing

Maybe...

Maybe...Just, Maybe

It's been...unexpectedly a rather pleasent day.
I've also learn alot about a friend today.

I've learn alot about people this year. My mother questioned if I make the right choice or not in choosing to come here...

I can saftey say...

A little talk can do wonders.

At times Scrubs makes me want to be a doctor too.

I've been thinking a lot lately about taking chances, and how it's really just about overcoming your fears. Because the truth is, every time you take a big risk in your life, no matter how it ends up, you're always glad you took it.


The fact you're talking agian...Has made my day...week actually.

And I'll always wait...

You simply can't please everyone.

Was it your fault that she was discluded?
Maybe yes...Maybe no.

Maybe you should speak to her?
Should of been due rather long ago.

Please leave me rot
I dont belong here with you
Youre my forbidden territory
That I cant have
Because you dont know what it is like to be unwanted

After all. You can't please everyone.