Friday, 26 March 2010
so why kawing? because whenever you write post like that, and ignore me or whatever, it makes ME feel like shit, like i should be guilty for somethingI'm sorry.
I didn't want it to end like this.
If anything, I'm wrong. And I'm the guilty one.
I think it's best if I leave now.
And...stop posting.
As for ignoring you.
I think it's best if I just leave.
I am really sorry.
22:54
Irrational urge to hate.
I'm sorry.
It really was uncalled for.
My apologies.
16:57
Thursday, 25 March 2010
It's been months now. Why am I taking it suddenly...now?
Maybe it's because I give everything up in a precisly a week's time.
Maybe.
Maybe innatly I don't want to give up, but to hold to that tiny ray of what little hope I have left.
It's diguestingly disguesting.
I mean today...
I really...
wanted to let her know how much...
physically.3
18:49
Wednesday, 24 March 2010
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
22:05
Tuesday, 23 March 2010
...It's not fair.
Of all people why him?...He's...pathetic.
Not fair at all.
I don't like this feeling.
I just want you...
19:15
Monday, 22 March 2010
It is done.
This past month.
This past year.
As early as September.
All my prepations...Finally comes to an end.
Now we wait till April 1st
Have you been asking me questions? It's a limited time offer....
22:46
When I should be aruging for the non existance of God...
I lost track of things...And found thoughs of her instead.
God...why am I still not over her yet?
Why do I still love her?
18:06
Sunday, 21 March 2010
Sudden idea.
A little thankyou gift before I leave.
19:02