One talk. One conversation with...well I would place a number down...but...she doesn't have one...
And I realised...
I'm not so close....anymore.

I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me...
I let the melody shine...
let it cleanse my mind hope to... feel free now
But the airwaves are clean and there's nobody singing to me now

No change, I can't change, I won't change, I can't change,
Bbut I'm here in my mold , I am here with my mold
And I'm a million different people from one day to the next

Looking back
You know that all I see,a re things I could've changed
I should have done.
Where did the good times go?
Good times so hard to hold

Sad lament
A wasted life is bitter spent

Woke up one other day. The pain won't go away
I am growing, in peculiar ways
Into a light I pass. Another dream...

Are we blind - can we see?
We are one - incomplete
Are we blind - In the shade?
Waiting for lightning - to be saved

Will those feet in modern times, understand this world's affliction
Recognise the righteous anger, understand this world's addiction

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down...
know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet

A beautiful mind or a beautiful body.

You say you will but you never promised thoughts,
And I, thought I heard it for a while

Then it all came to me
Sometimes I just don't know I believe in
Don't you wanna know when I suffer?
It doesn't show.

This is now the end of the story...this is finally the end of the old decade of illusions

What I started is lost now
What I started was the beginning of the old decade of illusions

I never never never let her down
I never let her down

Stirring in your sleep last night...
I was awake with something on my mind.

What happens when I leave, will you come with me?
These things I guess I'll never know,
Acutally. I do know. I don't want to face them.

Tell me, who do you see when you die in your dreams?
Tell me, who do you touch when you come in your dreams?

I know, for me.
I die.
I touch....

I know that sometimes I get lost
Been asking questions since the day I could talk...
Life is sweet but when my bones get cold
Will you be there for me to hold?

You holding me

Loving souls meet again in silent winds
Ashes to ashes - once divided now united again
Loving souls meet again in silent winds
Ashes to ashes - a promise made in past

This is not the end of this story, not yet anyway

No one really knows me
No one ever said
Surely isn't free
Surely...doesn't end, honey

Too much commotion, too much emotion
Dragging me down. Living for today, don't have time to study.
Ready for the game. Take a line of fickle flame

Imagine the future
I was buying some feelings, from a vending machine
Say that I will see, Something more than I have
There's something inside of me. Crying out for something else

And if someone hears my scream. Put it in a letter to me
Slippery slimy road down

Too much commotion

Not enough emotion to satisfy me
Slippery slidy road down

Hold my hand and we'll walk down
Dry those eyes and we'll walk down
It's not going to happen. Ever.

Too much commotion, too much emotion

I'm looking for you. In my dream.
Heading for the light
Shivered back again
Almost in the light

We was close. Now? What happen?
Distant.
Gone....I thought....
nevermind.

I wander lonely streets
Behind where the college is.
Parks...parks...parks...
And in every face I meet
Reminds me of what I have run from.
Espically yours. And...now...

In every man, in every hand
In every kiss, you understand
That living is for other men...espically him.
I hope you two will understand.

Oh...Of how I loved and how I failed
I hope you understand...
ah, haha...doubtable.
You just cast a "blind eye". And pretended nothing happen.

I find that worst. Talk to me.

She knew my feelings were jangled and frayed
She took me into a wind blown alley way

So, here we go,
No knock on my door...what has living has done to me?
And I'm sure that I need holding

Can be painful, I know.
Oh, can you see me
knocking down your door?

Sure, there's times I have hoped
There's times I have dreamed
Oh, but it seems that much to me to me

Nothing in the jar - be my star...Sure I've seen it before
No knock on my door

But it seems that I pushed you in my life
Can't seem to get it out my life

In every child, in every eye
In every sky, above my head
I hope that I know

Nothing left to say...nay. Nothing.

We could see what we should do
Maybe you know it's true

And one and one is two. But three is company
When you're thinking about the things you do. And you're thinking about the things you do

In every sky, in every kiss
There's something that I might have missed

To live today, so why not smile
To be in your eyes...

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
I prayed we'd never come to this, but I guess its really over now.

When morning breaks
We hide our eyes and everywhere...love's aching
Nothing's strange

It all works for a while, I listen to myself, but then over time I just completely forget about it.
I make my decision, think about it over and over again and change my mind.
I tell myself that i cant think about it, and i think about it.
I tell myself that i can stop these feelings now, but i cant.
It all works for a while, I listen to myself, but then over time i just completely forget about it.



The tune. Music. My compostion.
It's for you.
It's titled...

Good-bye