I actually feel terrible.
I looked at her...and sudden overwhelming feeling of saddness....

Ahhh...
This time last year, if I was in the exact same sitatution, I would not of cared less. I would of even mocked them. And perhaps even rubbed it in their face.

Emotionally growing...It's scaring me.
I actually feel terrible.

I don't deserve what I got.
I didn't revise. I didn't...doing any practise. She did. She worked for it....She should got it. Not me.

I know it's not my fault...but I still can't help feeling...
80583, the amazing little person who makes everyone happy...even told me...This time it's impossibe to make her smile.

But...I guess; at the end of the day...I just want to see her smile.

"Smile...for you have a nice smile"
"You can't please everyone. If you keep on going like this...You'll only be upset yourself."